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November 19th, 2009

11:24 pm I enjoyed my job last week. That is not only no longer the case but the thought that I have to go to work tomorrow makes me cringe...I no longer enjoy it in any way and once again look at my job as something that just has to be put up with so I can go home and do what I enjoy...I miss liking my job, I guess that won't happen until next year...is it so much to ask to be allowed to enjoy what I do? The fact that it is getting closer to Christmas and homesickness and that it is my depressing season really doesn't make it any better at all...I am going shopping for Christmas presents this weekend and I think I will risk going to the theater by myself tomorrow night so I can watch twilight...wait...I know it comes out on the 20th in the US...I just realized it might not be out tomorrow here...guess we'll see... I am going to have Christmas this year...the fact that on Christmas eve I will have to work is upsetting since that one is more important to me than the actual Chrismas...wonder if I can ask for a vacation on that day and just get smashed in my room with the cheap bottle of rum... Also, I am freezing and my space heater is not enough, I still have to sleep with a long sleeve. Current Mood: crushed Current Music: Ghost of the Robot - Good Night Sweet Girl

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November 18th, 2009

12:20 am I just realized something...I think my boss is expecting the type of one page crap report that Mike wrote her a month ago...I don't think she realizes that I am the queen of BS and if I have any understanding of what I am talking about at all, I can make it 10 pages long, use big words and make any Lit teacher happy enough for a 100%...she is so screwed...plus she will have to look up some words since I am taking this report seriously, unlike the last one that I had no idea what I was talking about, and am BSing on HIGH lvls!!! Current Mood: cold Current Music: Jesper Kyd - The Animus 2.0

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12:02 am My boss decided to piss me off today. As in piss me off baaad. She tells me that I am too loud in the office, to which I agreed because it is me and we all know me, but then she tells me that when I listen to music with my headphones I am too quiet and that I have to find a midium. Sorry, but I like being quiet when I am that way and what the hell is a happy medium to that. You either want me to be quiet in the office or talkative. Then she tells me that she doesn't like that I bring work at home to finish it up and that I have to find time to do it at work and that at home I should be relaxing and not working. Who the hell cares? If it gets done, does it matter where it gets done? I mean seriously. My grading is better at home when I am relaxed and not freaking out about classes. Then she tells me that she wants me to talk more to the Korean teachers even though they speak only Korean...yeah, lady, I DO talk to the Korean teachers its just I talk to them when you are not around because they don't want to talk to us when you are here because they know you are listening to every damn word....maaan, I am sooooo pissed. She holds such a double standart. I am going to stop talking at work, without my headphones and lets see how she reacts to that! And you know what, if things don't get done on time, she will just have to get over it. By taking things home, I could do more things and get journals done in the beginning of the week which all of my kts loved but now I can no longer do that so they will just have to deal with the boss when it comes to that. I enjoyed my job, is what she doesn't realize, but I no longer will since apparently I am not supposed to. I hope my next school will appreciate the fact that I put all I am into my job! Rant over. Now I am going to write my damn report because boss is rushing me to have it written before she observes my class(so she can make sure I do what I preatch). I have to go to an art gallery tomorrow and while I do want to go because it is Iseol's final project before she graduates, I am sooo not in the mood. I will not have enough sleep and will be pissed about boss woman...I need a good slash but have no time...damn it! Current Mood: bitchy Current Music: Crisis Core OST - Why (CCFFVII Mix)

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November 14th, 2009

07:48 pm Had to go to work early today...I am so beat since I had to go hang out with Tiffany-her being depressed and all. It is 7:30pm here and I feel like it is 4 am. I am totally out of it and I am kinda loopy. I am also cold...really cold. I kinda want to read fic but at the same time I don't. It's one of those OMG SO EXHAUSTED moments when you can't go to bed because it is too early but you can't do anything else either because it takes too much brain power...Also, I was informed that I am not allowed to be sick so I would like to mention that except for being really cold, I am no longer sickl...YAY...now off to slumber land with my eyes open...Tiffany is still here and it is still too early... Current Mood: complacent Current Music: Jesper Kyd - Florence Tarantella

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November 2nd, 2009

12:30 pm I hate being sick! no, it's not the swine flue, just a cold, sinuses, but I am still sick and I hate it. The new roommate is cool. He likes V. Games and anime plus shows that I like, like Firefly. We spend 12 hours yesterday watching Starcraft since I had locked myself at home due to being sick and had set up my computer in the living room where I was playing Age of Conquorers and Oblivion. It was fun. I have to go shopping today. I have some rice made, so that is an incentive to stay home but I have to go to the doctor and get toilet paper so going out it is....DUN WANNA! Turns out, Mike the asshole stole almost all of our tuppaware...I am angry! Those are expencive here and he went and stole like 10 of them...we have only one left...I wanna strangle him!!! But he is gone so I guess I have to be happy about that. Current Mood: cold Current Music: Gackt - Gackt - Last Song (sixth day version)

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October 26th, 2009

10:36 pm I am sick...no susrprise here, I get sick constantly. My mom was freaking out with the whole swine flu thing but it is just a regular cold and I am catching it on early. Best part, the visit to the doctor, that lasted 5 mins, plus the medicine cost me all together around $5...that's right, I just payed $5 for a doctor visit and pills and this is normal price here too...I am loving the health care!!! Because, I am sick, I can do nothing today. Actually, I was planning on writting a bit but am soooo sleepy and have been for the last 8 hours so I am going straight to bed. The roommate is moving out on Wed. and they are sending in a cleaning lady because the new roommate is coming in that same evening. I am hoping beyond hope that he is not messy and doesn't make too much noise at night...I am not asking for that much, damn it!!! Anyway, I have yummy tea that I bought the other day, will have a sammich for lunch tomorrow since I am trying to save some money, and will take my pills. Maybe will watch an episode or two of Angel as well, since I am on season 5...(I decided to skip the first five since I just wanted to watch Spike) and will hopefully finish the damn show this weekend since I haven't in two years. I am going to start my X-Mas shopping next month and for the most part I know what I am getting ppl...I had a bit of ranting here, about the ppl who have not bothered to contact me at all but decided to delete it...It's not like they would bother reading it and I am not going to bother the rest of you awesome ppls with it. Which brings me to this...Tex, I have no idea what to get you...TJ is easy, but you are a mystery...maybe a comicbook in Korean but I don't think you are as much into comic books...or if you are, any perticular heroes you are looking for? LOL I could just get you something star wars related if I can find anything...still don't know where to find the geek stuff...apparently anime is not geeky here ^^ I kinda wish I could get something for cluegirl and copperbadge since they are awesome but I don't think they will appreciate a random stranger asking for their adress so she can send them goodies from South Korea...^^ It sounds too farfetched! So, any ideas on how I can ask them without sounding creepy? 'Cause mainly, there are some AWESOME socks that I can send them because this is the country of awesome socks and then there are a whole bunch of other weird shit that I know they will appreciate...any ideas? Current Mood: sick

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October 20th, 2009

12:10 am So, since Soju is the drink of choice here I didn't think I would be able to find any rum...and I was pleasently wrong. I was in the supermarket and I decided to look into the alcohol section just for the hell of it. Lo and behold, I found rum. It tastes a bit cheap and with herbs that I don't think have any place to BE in rum but it is still good so I am happy. It is a 700ml bottle, that is pretty, for like $4 so yay. funny thing is, I wasn't even sure it WAS rum when I bought it. It is the right color but the bottle is all in korean. It is called Captain Q and there is a picture of a sailor on it...which is why I assumed it is rum...I mean c'mon...Anyway, apparently, Peter, one of the previous ENTs told Mike, the idiot roommate, to stay away from the stuff because it gets you baaad....that is pretty much where I told him he is a wuss...LOL I reminded him, not too politely, that unline him, I don't go for week alcohol but stick to hard luiqor and I can handle my alcohol. So, I've had a quarter of the bottle, feel nothing(as to be expected with me) and am happy to finally have rum. In other news, the owner of school told me today that if it was up to him, and not the director of my branch whom he left the final decision to since she will have to work with it, he will fire the roommate tomorrow and get him out of my apartment since he doesn't like him very much and he is bothering me as well. The director, however, is afraid to be without another ent. There will be another guy they are hiring that I will be living with but I am hoping he will be cleaner...if not, this time around I will not wait around and not say anything. I am sick of dealing with it. On november 1st I am haning out with Ryan again...not sure if his GF is coming too since I don't know if they will still be together then...is it bad of me to want him to break up with her? Even if he is not interested in me, she is so BAD for him...as in, he is miserable and he KNOWS he should brake up with her but he is worried about hurting her...I wanna smack him sometimes... Anyway, I have been painting some, woring on some art and realizing I am getting better, slowly but steadely. I have also learned a few new phrases in Korean but am wishing the YMCA classes would go faster because the slow pace is killing me. There are mountains here and I haven't gone hiking yet...it is killing me, I swear!!! So, when I came here I was 165. I am down to 160. It is not a lot of weight loss but at the same time I have gained a lot of muscle since I keep going up and down the stairs at work. when I came I had a size 12 pants that were really tight on me...they are now rediculasly loose on me...and yet, the scale doesn't say that i have lost that much weight...then again, climbing the stairs doesn't get me winded unless it is the staris at Yulha but the stairs there are insane...I mean, seriously, 6 flight of stairs and each flight is twice the size of regular flights...and to make it worse, little old ladies and grandpas have to climb them too and they didn't think to add an escelator for them...I mean, my knees are killing me after, can you imagine how THEY feel? Anyway, it is past midnight, I should go to bed.. Current Mood: contemplative

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October 18th, 2009

11:30 pm I am amazing at reading people, judging their personalaties and just over all understanding the way they interact. And yet, when it comes to judging whether someone is interested in someone else, especially me, I suck HARD! No, I am not that bad at judging personalaties of people I date mainly because I haven't really dated anyone seriously to begin with and I never really cared to look on whether they were serious dating material or not...mainly because the answer was always no and I just dated them for the fun, company and some for the sex. I suck at finding serious material in the first place that I concider a possible match for me. What I suck at the worst is knowing whether someone is interested in me or not...how do you figure that out. I mean, with me, I mostly stay in denial and even if most of my friends tell me the person is interested, I still deny it(I think secretly I don't believe I am worth it even though I am starting to get over that) but how do you judge something like that. How do I know if someone is being just really friendly or they are actually interested. I mean, I kinda wish ppl were just a bit more like Josh who told me within the first week that I am hot and he likes me and that if I am ever interested or lonely I should come to him. That is why became such good friends because I knew all of his intentions from the beginning. Ofcourse, it started getting creepy about 3 years later when he was depressed and pushy about it but before that, he just put it out into the open and we both knew where we stood. I would do it myself except I know most ppl will change their ways of interacting with me if I told them I had a crush on them and that sucks. So yeah, I have no idea and I am afraid to listen to my friend mainly because I have also known really friendly guys...so, any tips? Current Mood: bored

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October 15th, 2009

10:35 pm I hate being the bitch that tells her friend that he is being treated like shit and that he knows it and that he needs to grow a backbone and end it...and a lot of the time I hate the fact that I have to be blunt about it as well. Yes, I would like to be able to hint at it and for them to get the hint and get out of the bad relationship and every time I try that, it is too late for them to get the damn hint. I hate wondering if they will even speak to me again after everything I have said but I aslo know that it needed saying and that if they take my advice and never talk to me again, it would still be worth it because they will no longer be in that pain. Sometimes I hate myself for being honest or for wanting to be honest. I hate myself for hurting others with the truth but someone has to tell it and most people don't have the balls for it while I have a natural incline towards telling it as I see it. And yet, I always doubt my choice of truth. Is it really better? I know people don't want to hear the truth so then, why do I do it? Why do I not lie through my teeth like everybody else...yes, I am depressed a little, whatever. I am also freezing and I just told one of my friends that he needs to dump his girlfriend of three years because she treats him like shit and he knows it and he doesn't deserve to be treated like that...I don't want to loose him as a friend and I might very well but I can't sit and watch him fall deeper into depression because of her and know that I have never said anything...Sometimes I hate my sense of justice... Current Mood: cold

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October 11th, 2009

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October 10th, 2009

02:52 am So, my roommate got fired today. He is, at the moment getting plastered(I actually went to a bar and witnessed it for my self...then I left). He has a month to find another job or they are sending him back...also, I might end up either not having a roommate or having the chinese teacher as a roommate and she is cool so that is ok...as long as I don't have to move I am good. My apartment is a complete mess because of his dog, ofcourse, but I have to survive only one more month... In other news, my clothes smell like cigarettes from the bar and I have to do laundry!!! Current Mood: drained

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September 29th, 2009

09:09 pm I am living with a pig...no wait, I think a pig might be a little less messy and a lot less disgusting...he is one of those people that make the rest of his race become ashamed of themselves...This is where I am...I am ashamed to be called a human and to be told that I am in any kind of distant way related to him...*shoots self in the head* I am meeting Ryan this weekend, most likely, and am haning out with Tiffany for a little whiile. I hope this next one won't junx it but I wrote 2000 words yesterday and I am very proud of myself since I haven't touched the poor fic in weeks...if I end up writing 2000 words for 7 days in a row, I will catch up to my quota...damn, I am never going to catch up...Bu hey, when it is done, I will be happy because I think it is my best writing yet. And best part is, no one knows any details so I am actually writing. Aparently if I am writing a chapter fic, I have discovered that I have to start posting after it is all done because otherwise the moment I start posting, I stop writing...Now if I could just FINISH a chapter fic...but they are all soooooooooo loooooooooong... I am almost done with SGA and am having trouble getting the rest of SG1...Farscape is being difficult about being downloaded and so is Eurika and Buffy...I guess I can rewatch Angel and coffee prince while I wait... I wish we were studying grammer already but we are still on the alphabet. it's ok... Current Mood: complacent

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September 20th, 2009

12:20 am So, i have a dog...ok, technically she is my roommate's dog but when he leaves in a year I have agreed to take her in if he lets me train her now. He is more than happy to let me train her, so I have a puppy. She is 3 weeks old, a mix of a german sheppart and something else, and he saved her from the butchers where they were selling her to be eaten...yeah, I know, and no it is not common here, it is actually rare but they do have asholes that sell them and it is not illigal. Anyway, she is very quiet, obviously not potty trained, but Mike is more than willing to clean after her and we have decided we will teach her to go to the bathroom in the actual bathroom since there is a drain in the floor and will make cleaning it very easy. It will also solve the problem of us not being around and her needing to go. So, I have a puppy, her name is Cass(short for cassidy) and she is very cute. She will be a big dog but that is how I like them plus I go walking alot around here so I can take her with me too. Especally when I go hiking. In 5 years time, or when I decide to go back, I will have enough money saved up to bring her back with me so I am not worried. I am glad there is a pet here again, I have missed Sora something terrible and I have not heard from the woman that has him. I like having an animal around the house. I almost bought a fish today but it seems now I don't need one. ^^ Current Mood: content

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September 14th, 2009

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12:01 am I have figured out a way to play games while still in bed...this is bad I think but it is more comfy than that horrible hard chair...I just have to rearrange a whole bunch of things to make it permenant...unless they make me more which I will be mad about. He is the asshole, he should be the one to move...unless they give me a single appartment, then I won't complain. But back onto topic, I can just wake up tomorrow and I don't need to leave the bed. I just pick up my keyboard and my mouse and game...it is official, I am addicted...oh wait, that has been official for a very long time...oops... I was planning on writing today but felt like crap all day so didn't write anything...btw, all of this I am writing in the dark so please forgive me any spelling errors that I don't usually make...also, this font is TINY for where I am so I can barely see it. ^^ Current Mood: cranky Current Music: Okina Reika - Tsuki no Curse

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September 13th, 2009

11:50 am crap with roommate, don't feel like talking about it. Am planning to go out and eat but I don't know what I want... I think I will write some fic today...I haven't done that in a while... P.S. I love my cards. I tried to explain the whole thing to Monika last year but she didn't get it. I finally broke down and used them today even though I don't have the book I want and I am glad I did. They always make me feel better and I truly love them. In a way it is also a way for me to meditate with them and I have missed that. Wonder if anyone out here gets it...^^ Current Mood: bitchy

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September 9th, 2009

10:35 pm Mike is a total smeghead! If you don't get the reference, you should be watching Red Dwarf! Today was an insane day and I was late for EVERYTHING!!! Also, I was hoping for a letter from Hoon Cheon but guess not... Current Mood: cranky Current Music: Turbo - Memories

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01:25 am So, roommate cleaned after himself today, so that is good but tomorrow I am planning a SERIOUS talk about locking doors at night and when he leaves and especially about the fact that I am NOT paying electricity for him to run AC all night long when it is cool enough outside that he just needs to open his window or for him to leave lights on all night and the TV on when he leaves the apartment. It is going to be a SERIOUS talk...also, about the fact the we have to recicle in this country which means, there IS A REASON why we have 3 diff bags for trash and that he shouldn't throw everything in the white trashcan(that he didn't even bother to put a bag in) but we have to use the special bags...IT'S THE LAW HERE DAMN IT!!! And I am NOT going to go after him cleaning the trash!!! Also, that green bucket that he decided to throw trash in, since the white one was filled up, (also no bag) is actually our mop bucket so he better wash it good! In other news, I am going out with Tiffany for lunch tomorrow since I am sick of looking at the roommate and my kitchen that was soooooo much cleaner when he WASN'T around...so, no cooking for me this week, I will just eat kimbab(it's like sushi only really cheap and has only veggies in it). night now Current Mood: crappy Current Music: Unknown - 06-Please go back - Jeong Jae Wook

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September 6th, 2009

07:19 pm ok guys, here is one for you: (Keep in mind, this happened in the town where my friend Tiffany used to live before she came here to Korea) A bear that wants to eat healthy: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GjrI5ELkj3Y watch and laugh! Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Hyde - A DROP OF COLOUR

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September 5th, 2009

11:59 pm so, the roommate has moved once again downagain to asshole lvl...he left the aircon on all day and unlike in the US, this means LOTS OF MONEYS!!! Which obviously he is giong to refuse paying...plus there is the fact that he didn't bring himself any toothpaste and has been here for 2 weeks...and he is using MY toothpaste that once I finish I will have to ask my mom to buy and spend me a specific kind since I can't stand most toothpastes...so I am pissed!!! In other news, a bit happier news, I finally got myself a new keyboard...it is a usb one and has korean characters on it so it is AWESOME... I also figured out how to work the japanese interface so that I type with english letters and it writes into hiragana and then converts into kanji...it's awesome...it does however mean that while learning Japanese is going to be easier for me now, it is NOT going to be easier to learn to read it...which sucks...but hey, I think I will concentrate on Korean for now. I learned 2 new words today, which won't be much really in the grand sceam of things but I am not trying to be all crazy learning yet since I am waiting on the YMCA classes to start two weeks from now. I might or might not explore Manchon tomorrow, depends on how I feel. It's a fool moon and I want to do a reading but I forgot my tarot book at home and while I have the tiny booklet that comes with the my second tarot set, I REALLY don't like that booklet, I like my own book. I asked my mom to pack it in my box that she is sending me with t-shirts and jeans. She was trying to find it when she gave up and stumbled onto my copy of American Gods so I told her to pack that instead...and then, just as she was leaving, she found the Tarot book as well so I asked her to pack both if there is enough space. I will love to open my box and find not only my fave tarot book but also american gods, just laying there, waiting for me to read it. ^^ After that I will just have to order Anansi boys. I am getting used to my keyboard so now it is time for a Korean lesson: 앙녕하세요 - *pronounce* (anyong haseyo) - hello, how are you and that is all for today's lesson...and yes, that was me practicing writing in korean with my keyboard which is awesome and I don't have to worry about which syllables go together, I just write and it seperates them by itself...I will practice more. Really, I want to buy the HP1 book in Korean and start translating, after I get the basics in grammer. Mainly because I also have the book in English, Bulgarian and Russian with me and having it in Korean will be awesome plus I will be able to learn some korean from trasnlating. And I can even practice copying from it which will get me better at writing and reading korean faster...but that will be sometime in October. Hoon Cheon(Ryan) said he will try to find me a free phone deal so that will be better on money... Current Mood: calm Current Music: ???(SG ???) - ??? ??

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