InsaneJournal

Current mood:

bored

I am amazing at reading people, judging their personalaties and just over all understanding the way they interact. And yet, when it comes to judging whether someone is interested in someone else, especially me, I suck HARD! No, I am not that bad at judging personalaties of people I date mainly because I haven't really dated anyone seriously to begin with and I never really cared to look on whether they were serious dating material or not...mainly because the answer was always no and I just dated them for the fun, company and some for the sex. I suck at finding serious material in the first place that I concider a possible match for me. What I suck at the worst is knowing whether someone is interested in me or not...how do you figure that out. I mean, with me, I mostly stay in denial and even if most of my friends tell me the person is interested, I still deny it(I think secretly I don't believe I am worth it even though I am starting to get over that) but how do you judge something like that. How do I know if someone is being just really friendly or they are actually interested. I mean, I kinda wish ppl were just a bit more like Josh who told me within the first week that I am hot and he likes me and that if I am ever interested or lonely I should come to him. That is why became such good friends because I knew all of his intentions from the beginning. Ofcourse, it started getting creepy about 3 years later when he was depressed and pushy about it but before that, he just put it out into the open and we both knew where we stood. I would do it myself except I know most ppl will change their ways of interacting with me if I told them I had a crush on them and that sucks.

So yeah, I have no idea and I am afraid to listen to my friend mainly because I have also known really friendly guys...so, any tips?